LENT day 14

     I had a very strange dream last night. Well... not exceptionally and I felt there was meaning to it, perhaps capturing a message from God. I dreamt that there was a social event for high school fellowship that I mentor. The event took place on a Friday evening (I presume) and everyone dissolved to their own church's fellowship. I held back one of the members and we went for tiramisu at a jap place. She had to lead singspiration or something and I made her late. She said "Just because you don't want to go to fellowship, don't drag me with you." What hit me the most is the use of the word 'want'. This spoke directly to my heart. I currently lack fellowship. I believe it's God telling me: "It's time. Settle down, you've explored enough." Entrusted with opportunities to bring people to fellowship be it Katalyst or Zion, verified this dream.
     I'm so tired, my own fault, I know. I've been staying up late at night indulging myself in things that I should not be indulging in. What can't you do for God? Think about it. Nothing else matters in comparison. I'm also trying to let go of the idea of getting into co-op. Whenever I make plans, God shows me otherwise. He never fails to show me that the plans I make for myself never succeed. The best things happen when I don't plan for it, when I surrender it to God. If you don't humble yourself... God will humble you! o_o I highly recommend (from experience) that you humble yourself, 'cause if God does it... let's just say it has bigger impact than you can imagine.